This Incredible Difference


I see this response in a lot of people, so I guess I am perfectly average and normal for even thinking I don’t measure up. But look at the other side of this feeling. Why does it matter that there are people I fully expect to apologize to me for their behaviors? Why should they? Why should I be significant enough to them that they should care? Why should it matter to them that they did something to hurt me? Why is it that I want to be significant to them? The guy who says he is just a guy, one of billions, who probably doesn’t deserve one person’s love and devotions, suddenly feels that he should be significant. That he should matter to someone else. How do I reconcile this incredible difference? How do I accept that someone cares for me as deeply as they do? Or how do I accept that I am not significant? That there are people who will hurt me and I won’t matter to them? How do I accept that there are people who will not care about me? Maybe there are just billions of crazy people on this rock, and maybe I am just one of them.

Billions People


Billions. As in the number of people who inhabit this fair planet (we don’t have any other choice). Estimates put the number of humans on the planet somewhere around 6,867,800,000 (I have no idea how we managed an even number). I could go on and on about how big that number really is. The point here is not about the astounding number of people walking on this rock. It is about the significance of one person on this rock. I don’t mean celebrity or leader significance either. I am talking one perfectly normal average person (like me or the majority of my readers) who does not stand in front of millions for whatever reason a person chooses to stand there. How does one perfectly normal average person become someone incredibly significant? I don’t mean just a little significant. I mean like the entire world to someone else? If you think there is some personal experience happening here, you are on the right track. Giving birth to a child makes a woman the entire world to that child and that child has the potential to become so significant...

Significant to that woman that she will willingly give her life to insure the child is not even harmed. What about adults who are not related? How do we become so significant to each other that we would do the same thing? Or even lesser significances. I hate causing harm to anyone anywhere. I hate that I did something that caused someone intense emotional pain. I was that significant to her. But who am I actually? What sets me apart from the billions of other men to her? Why did I matter so much? I try to tell her I am just a guy. It does not matter. To her I become someone truly significant and I was unable to be what she wanted and needed. I feel certain if I had stayed with her I would have hurt her far more than she could handle and I could not live with myself if I had done that. I have difficulty seeing myself as a person who deserves to have someone love and care me for so much like that. 

Good Bye Steel Horse


That is what he looked like at the shop where I found him. Well, in person, he looked much clearer, but I didn't have my good camera with me. I didn't make a good decision financially that day. But I still got that steel horse. Today I contacted the creditor and we are making arrangements for them to come and pick him up. I don't know how much longer I will get to keep him, but there is nothing I can do to change what will happen. I will get a new steel horse at some time in the future. Of that I am certain. I will make a better financial decision between now and then, and I will make a much better decision when I get to that point. For now, I find myself wondering if I should still call myself The Steel Horseman. I have already made a decision to move away from blogspot. As I mentioned a year or two ago, I no longer wish to be "stalked". I won't tell the "stalker" or her friends where to find me. Since at least one is a friend of mine, I guess that would not make me a good friend. So it will be. Looking forward. I will contact, through email, everyone who I know reads this blog regularly. I will let you know where to find me. If I miss anyone, please leave me a comment and a means to contact you, and I will be sure to let you know where to find my new blog. I promise, it will be much better.

What is Great about Hypnosis?


Hypnotherapy is a form of therapy using hypnosis, with scientifically proven results in helping people to solve their problems in a creative way. Some theories see hypnosis as an altered state of mind using an enhanced ability to respond to suggestion. If you didn’t know, the phrase Hypnotherapy Dubai is very popular in this country due to the number of people that are searching for it every day. In my opinion, the word hypnosis is a very mysterious word which can mean a lot of things for a lot of people. The first thing I can think of when someone brings up the word “hypnosis” is the mystification of this practice. However, today’s science is proving how beneficial it is to our every-day life. Hypnosis is a practice often associated with trance state. Although trance has connotations of glassy-eyed automatism, it means only a superior level of attention and concentration.
It is a fact that our brain is naturally designed to go into trance every 90 minutes or so. The people in general are very scared about this concept because of their misunderstanding andignorance. Instead of being afraid of hypnosis, you can easily discover this science and learn more about trance that involves the concept of focused attention. More and more people are using hypnosis for various purposes like quitting smoking, losing weight, memory and recall, increasing focused attention at work or school, and so on. In my opinion, this is the greatest thing about hypnosis and I’m happy to hear that more people today are appreciating it, like a unique, but safe practice of meditation. In conclusion, we can say that hypnosis, even if it’s not used at a large scale to help people,may be an important form of evolution reflected in our state of mind from a spiritual point of view.